Bit of a vent.

I have been sitting in this same spot for most of the day, save for a few trips to the kitchen and toilet, and a small stint on the drums. 


I'm angry at myself for not having a life. It's true, and it sucks major testes. It's not like I'm not doing anything about it - because I yam, believe me - but it's infuriating that my efforts seem to be getting me nowhere. I shan't find out about the job I hoping to get for about three weeks, so what am I going to do in that time? It's getting to me. thoughts of volunteering have crossed my mind, but those thigns can take weeks to organise, and by the time I do it will do too late, i will have wasted these weeks waiting to get my volunteering underway. GAH.


on a less whiney note, I yam SUPER proud to say I finally started learning how to play my favourite song, 'Trains' by Porcupine Tree, on guitar. It's not as hard as I had anticipated, so far. This has eased my anxiety slightly over the last two days. Also, large amounts of food and music have helped. I would however like to see a few people over the next few weeks, because I miss them and having no face value conversation is driving me nuts. I'm sure you know who you are. ^_^


so that's my day. pretty shitty. just like most others. 
If you would like to listen to 'Trains', then look it up on YouTube or listen to the sample on the itunes store or somshit. I ain't your mumma not gonna do everything for you. BUT I highly recommend it. 


Until next time, whoever is reading this.